reek of bad faith

i’ve spend a lot of time alone and in my head; talking to myself.

from time to time, i'll catch it on video when i'm shooting and it's terrifying to watch myself when i'm editing.  i told my therapist cause i know how crazy i look and she told me that it's very common for people who were once left-handed.  she said that's why i stutter a lot too.  i repeat everything in my head, then mouth the words before i speak.

i said thats a load of shit and saw the disappointment in her face when i really meant to mouth the words.

i know i reek of bad faith