disneyland.

Why is it the "in" thing to have a Disney Pass? It seems like everyone I know is in love with Disneyland. Why is it that even as a child I did not like that place? Was it the fact that the employees were obliged to "keep the magic alive"? Disneyland to me just seems so haunting. There's this façade that they put up for the world to nibble off. You know; the happy animals in human clothes, the bright colors, the happy faces. What do I see? A tortured soul suffocating in a heat suit, too many layers of paint, and sore cheeks.

Let me tell you the real reason why I refuse to go back to Disneyland: When I was 8, I went to Disneyland with my sisters, friends and possibly some cousins. I remember waiting in line with the rest of them while we were ordering food. I remember my dad holding my hand and walking away from our group. I followed him thinking he's finally going to take me to the ride I wanted to go on. I followed him as he held my hand and walked faster and faster. I can't remember how long we walked but I do remember when I realized that my dad didn't come with us, he was working.

I remember looking up at someone I did not recognize and thinking "why the fuck is he holding my hand (but not in those exact words)?" I did however muster enough courage to yank my hand back and run away.

The worst part was being lost and constantly thinking he'd find me. This is why I don't like Disneyland. So please, don't invite me.